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A Status Update on Life

An update from yours truly seemed to be in order - mostly about personal things.

The blog have kind of been at a standstill lately, but it is not because of lack of things to write about but more about having the time and space in my mind to just sit down and update the blog.

First, on a creative note - I have finally finalized the first chapter of Robert. I feel quite good about how it "turned" out and I am happy that it can spark an interest in people. Some of you have absolutely no idea what is to come and I promise you, you will be surprised. The entirety of the story is pretty much laid out in my head so it just needs to be written.

I will attempt to not put up sneak peaks for the next chapters, as it kind of ruins it I feel and puts me a bit off writing it - but I promise I will find something else to put up, like the map I want to create for Natural Selection 2. My creativity is slowly coming back but it is being hindered by personal problems and issues that I kind of have to get out of the way, before I can really focus on anything.

With that, onto personal matters. I do not have a girlfriend anymore after 4 years and 5 months, I do no longer have an apartment, I will not have a job after the 20th of January and I will not have any money for quite awhile. That's the heading of it all. It does mean I'm in a bit of a locked down place. I have an unsated desire to travel and educate myself but I do not have any kind of money for such luxuries. The job market is absolutely a trainwreck - people overqualified seek shittier jobs, just so they can have something - but it kind of kills newly educated people such as myself. I'm, however, continously striding to educate myself, but I have found that it would be futile to learn asp.net as it is not the kind of job I want. As a bit of a linux guy, I am certain that having a little knowledge in script languages (perl, etc.) would make me get further than being a linux guy and learn asp.net.

If anyone know of available jobs in the IT area, such as system adminstrator or other things, then please do contact me. I am in dire need of it. I do not want another phone support job.

I currently live at home, which gives me quite some freedom, money-wise. But having to move back home after 4-5 years is a huge slap in your face, but a necessary one to make things work. I've just been tossed into a small room with a bed and some space for my boxes and nitpicks. But it's home and I will admit it is nice. Thank you for that, parents.

Now that I am back at square one, I feel like I have the best scenario to turn my life around. Change myself so I become, who I always wanted to be. Who that is, I have no idea - but it is starting out with loosing weight and getting in shape. It is actually going pretty well, so far. It started out with just running every now and then but now I attempt to try and run every workday. Later on I will mix in a bit of cardio (just running and cycling, really) when I get my posessions back from the apartment. I am also constantly thinking about what I eat and drink. I thought about counting calories, but the sites and programs, I have found for it, are extremely lacking in quality - especially with mixed meals, so I went a bit away from that and am now just trying to think a bit more about what I put in the hole. (Is what she said).

Running is actually extremely easy, when you got "gadgets" to support you. I am using a program on my phone, called CardioTrainer. It's essentially a route recorder, that tracks kilometers run, average speed and (to some extend) calories burnt. This gives me the motivation to just push a bit extra and even though I have only run for about a month, I can daily feel an improvement. I also got a pulse watch as a christmas present, so I can measure my pulse as well and optimize fat burning. All I pretty much need now, is proper workout clothing and, soon, some new shoes.

On a bit of a happier note, I have reconnected with a friend I haven't spoken to in many years. We were kind of close and it was an amazing feeling, that we reclicked again with no effort at all. It's made me a bit happy and every day seems to go by a bit easier. Thank you, for that.

Hope you all had a great and relaxing couple of days.

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