Update on Life
Hey there.
I am currently writing on a project, that is pretty much writing itself. I even had to stop yesterday, just because it was too late to write more - so I cut a chapter in two. It's an amazing feeling, to create something with such ease. I truly try to make it as authentic as possible, but since I have no one to ask about how homosexuality treated them at such a young age, all I can pretty much do is predict and assume. I am a perfectionist at heart, which means I try not to look back at something I have written, because I will change on it constantly and never publish it. Now I just write, then publish it right after. No grammar checking, no typo-fixing - just straight to be published.
Onto my personal life, I have been to my first job interview, which went rather well. I will know if I have been accepted for a position on Friday. I seem to have reasonably good odds, since they are looking for 3 positions to be filled. I was selected out of 140 applies to an interview where there were only 18. Could be worse, I reckon. I just spend my days writing, training, chatting, meeting up with friends and gaming. It can get relatively boring - especially when everyone you know is working. It'll be just awesome to get a new job - hopefully create an entirely new life for me. You will never know.
On a related note on changing life, I finally told "my crush" (Yes, let's be teenagers about it) how I felt about her. Unfortunately, she is one busy girl, so all she could do was acknowledged it until a point where she have the time to respond properly. I truly wanted to say it to her face, after I have kind of "refreshed" my "view" on her or seen her again. But it wasn't possible due to unforeseen circumstances (Yay for references). Her reply back is the only thing I am really looking forward to in the near future, other than the job. I doubt, at this point, that it will change anything - but it is very important to me that she at least knows. Just sending that shit made me feel a lot better, more carefree and like a load was removed from my head.
I am getting no comments and feedback back from anything I have written, so I am just to assume that everything is awesomely perfect and it couldn't be any better.
I must admit, my main motivation for training have been somewhat subdued, but I keep pressing myself and training daily. My weight is going a bit up and down lately, which I am blaming on muscle build up. I feel like I eat less and less every day, which isn't bothering me much, most likely because I don't spend a lot of energy throughout the day - except when training, which a good cereal and a smoothie certainly keeps me going. I am about 12 kilograms away from my first goal - but people around me can see that I have lost weight. I just don't feel it, yet. Or see it. Which sucks.
That about it for now, I suppose.
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Dear Diary – Chapter 1
13/03-2010 23:39
Dear diary!
I am not good at these things. Hello there, hi! Smile and wave, look smug and sneak away with book under arm. Oh well.
Introduction first:
Hello there, diary. I bought you because I have a lot on my head that I feel that I cannot share with other people. Don't worry, glittery book of secrets, I do not want to kill anyone! 
It is nothing like that. It is something I am afraid that will make people judge me without knowing me. But, as I said! Introductions! I am 14 years old. I am Danish. Yes, why am I writing in English to you? Because it is a great way to learn a language. I am pretty formidable at the grand language of English..ing - but it doesn't hurt to keep it up. Maybe I will write in Spanish to you, when I start in the gymnasium or whatever I decide to go to? Also. I am a girl. I am quite ordinary, really. I quite like myself, for who I am - open minded, a present to the generation as my parents tell me. I got brownish hair, kind of bordering a bit on the red side. It's a bit long but doesn't go further down than my shoulders and I usually fluff it up to make it a bit interesting looking. What else to write about.. I like school, like so few now a days. They do not like to learn, I tell you - they just want the social aspects of the school, which I really can't blame them. I do fairly well on my tests.
I have a rumbling thought in the back of my head. How much should I share to my diary? I read somewhere that you shouldn't write down anything you are afraid will come back and haunt you, if someone figured it out or redefine who you are when you are dead. But if I can't be sincere to my diary, then who can I be to? I have just decided to be 100 percent truthful to you, dear diary. Oh, glittery. I suppose the first chapter in any book is good for introductions. I have introduced me. My name is not important, but it is a great name, one I will never depart of!
My (closest) friends!:
Susan - My best friend since I started in school. We have been through a lot of things as giggling girls. She is my girl in arms, you could say - together we make a lot of trouble, without it being proper trouble. She is blonde, does not care very much about school - usually just texts with the boys on her mobile phone (Do you really say cellphone in English?). She shares a bit too much information with me about them, apparently she have kissed at least 10 guys! But who am I to gossip to a diary. She is my friend for life, though. I suppose I am the good side and she is the bad side, the yin to your yang and all that funny stuff. I call her Sus and I am the only one who is allowed to do that, she says. Others she will beat. She is too small to beat anyone but there you go.
Malene - Kind of an outsider girl, if you can be allowed to say that. Very quiet, but we brought her into our clique. She got such a great smile, when she finally moves that immovable mouth of hers. She is a closed book, but it feels great when she starts talking. I know she likes to hang out with us, because she comes around without us asking. I like having her there, she is kind of a calm object in the mist of chaos, you know? She got brown hair, like it matters. She is a bit tall and a bit chubby, but she looks great even though of that. I've seen the guys glare a bit at her, maybe because she is developing fast but also because she is such a mystery! She is very quiet in class but does all her homework. She knows a lot of stuff, as well! Come to think of it, I have never been in her house. I don't know a lot about her, at all and I have known her since kindergarten. Is that a bad thing?
These are the most important girls in my life at the moment. I will explain more, if they come into it! But it's saturday and nothing is going on! Might as well go to bed. Night, diary.